Insecure

insecure.. insecure.. insecure..
insecure is a big part of my problem.. even though baby tell me that he only love me..
i know that he love me, but i just dont know y i always have this feeling.. maybe i have
noconfidence in myself.. that is y? or maybe is becos of the thing happen in the past
that leaves footsteps in my heart? not sure is it me or other girls will also feel
what i feel.. when i see there is sms from his girl friend, i will be like super conscious..
when he clear his sms or phone list, i will have doubts.. am i paranoid.. hope that
i am not.. have to learn to let go..let him have his own space, cos i know what i am
doing to him will eventually make him piss.. unlike, he say that i am not paranoid
and he dont mind me like this.. but still i think i have to learn to let go.. learn
that he will have girl friends.. just like me having guy friends.. but he have some
very good girl friends and is like he always have girls that want
to get close to him, that is the part that i am scare of.. but like everybody say "if he
wanna leave, he will leave.." so no need to scare.. lol.. but of cos will sure scare de
mah cos i have put in so for this relationship and he is very important to me that's y..
hope that i can recover from my 'sickness' soon.. so that i wont feel that i give him alot
of pressure.. wish me luck and feel free to give comments if u have any tips.. hehe..
shall end here.. enjoy ur weekend peeps..

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Dinner w Jun & Tien

Never turn up for treatment session with jean yip as i went to have dinner with jun
& tien together with baby. Tien was kinda having some relationship problems..
baby went back home first as he needs to attend for his *raid*, haha.. *World Of Warcraft*
gamer thingy.. after lunch we went shopping for awhile. tried on some
cloths, was very happy as my dress size drop. still have to keep it up as i need to
lost another 10 more kg to my target weight *finger cross* tien bought a denim dress
for $30 after 30% discount as my friend was the supervisor.. haha *sweet benefit* jun
bought a black cardigan for work. nothing for me.. tien is gonna wear that dress for faizal
and sharifah wedding *31 oct*. super excited as we will be having our secondary
school gathering.. its been yrs i have seen them.. time really flies.. still remember the
days when all the girls play in the rain with our uniforms and was announce the next day
morning in the assembly, haha.. lots of fun stuff.. super sleepy right now, eye vision
blurring out.. lol.. shall end here..

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jean yip

just called up jean yip and made a appointment at 5.30pm tomorrow.
left with 3 more session and i dont have to ever see their faces again especially "yvonne".
*she is the lady who intro me to this stupid package..
all they do is the treatment and they dont really care abt ur diet.
hard selling all their products whenever u visit them for treatment.
seriouly i wont give any single cents anymore to jean tip cos it really sucks..
FYI, this package was sign up like 2 yrs ago when baby ask me to try it out.
i even sign up for another facial package all being paid by baby.
but eventually i cancel the facial and took the slimming cream.. $200+ for a tube of cream
i went for 15 sessions and stop cos i can't see any result and all the hard selling is
way to sickening for me. Til this yr july they contacted me back and say i
still left with 5 sessions more with them. so in my mind, i just wanna finish
the package since money is already paid.

package include:
machine
cold wrap
hot blacket and wrapping

they always do the cold wrap after that it will be the hot blacket and wrapping.
hot blacket is to make u sweat like hell like u just run from a 5km distance.
instead, not one single sweat was found on any parts of my body..
i am actually very scare of cold, when the hot blacket in the process the body is still
recovering from the coldness. til the end of the hot wrap, my body is abt to sweat. it is
like 30 mins later cos the whole hot balcket process is abt 30mins..
so when they come into the room and tell u is time up but u feel no sweat, this is a point
that u think is a waste of time cos u expect urself to sweat..
oh well i just wanna get this done with.. dont really care abt it anymore as my mind has
been set that this package is a total waste of money and time..

now i have found a better slimming center that provides good service and they really
monitor ur weight and diet. always have to weight in every session *jean yip dont do that.
shall blog this when i have the time..*lazy

for tomorrow, baby is going for his running *RT
for me going to jean yip, make full use of time..haha..
last but not least jean yip sucks big time..

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Weekend *22 Aug 23 Aug*

Well this will be my first post..

Saturday (22 Aug)
Went back to JB
Mummy was having her gym session with godmother on sat morning.
Waited for mummy to pick me up in city square while she is having her lunch with her.
Went to Watson bought my facial wipe to remove my make up *feel that is much better
than to use makeup remover*
Watson was having great sales, feel like buying everything.. >.< *control* After that..
i wanted to go straight to wait for mummy at RHB bank, but ended up walking into Colour
*the shop name* As usual it was on sales like all of the others shop. Without delay, i pick
up 2 tops and went trying.. Both tops looks beautiful, thus i bought it.. gosh.. just less
than an hour, i have spend more then RM100. I walk out of the shop and see the next
shop from far distance, super lots of ppl.. SHOES!! lol.. tell myself not to walk there and
so i was on my way to wait for mummy le. waited for another 15 mins, mummy was here.
the first thing i told my mum was, u know what? i have just spend RM100+ while
waiting for u.. as usual.. she grumbler.. haha.. what can i say mum's instinct reach
home, daddy was not around.. mummy say that he is busy having meeting.. ate my
mee salad that was made by my sis-in-law and off i go to do my nails. feel that i am
becoming more and more vain.. gosh.. *money splendid* mummy is bringing us to
the park, which she say is very BIG.. when we reach there woo.. so many ppl, is
really big.. love the scenery.. brother and sis-in-law went running while mummy
and me together with my niece was enjoying the fresh air.. took quite a few of
photos in the park and was thinking to take my wedding outdoor photos there..
haha.. *thinking* after that mummy brought us to tun aminah to have dinner..
abalone kway teoh.. i chose to eat fuzhuo fishball and dumpling soup.. yum yum..
but i prefer the original stall.. althought compare to be dirtier the place..
overall alright.. thought that i could rest awhile but.. mummy wants me to
accompany her to her secondary school gathering first thing i ask, am i the
only daughter that will be there while others are old ladies.. lol.. my mum laugh
and i just went along.. we have a hard time finding the place becos of the number
display too small.. went i got in the house, their puppy kept on licking me.. i dunno
what to do and kept blocking.. lol.. i love puppies but licking is disgusting..lol..
mummy chatted with her friends til 11pm+ and we went home. watched a dancing
program with kor and mummy and turn
in at 1+ 2am.. super tired..

Sunday(23Aug)
Mummy woke up early like 10+
heard my niece voice as she was playing to herself and super active.
love her so much.. especially she is like doing those super cute noises..
I can't get back to sleep anymore and got up.. still tired though..
mummy cooked poridge and we ate it after that i bath and kor sent me to custom
and i was back in SG at 4pm+ waited for byby in sheng siong as his parents needed
to replenish groceries..
ended up buying alot of food.. otak..tibit..tibits.. and more tibits..
i ate 10 pieces of otak plus 1 pack of tapioca chips and logan ....
goshh.. my weight just shoot up.. will put in more effort this coming week..
thats all for now.. ciao.. and enjoy the pics..

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