depress.. emo..
lots of stuff running in my head..
have not been well this 2 days, taken mc and resting at home..
my body is failing me.. left thumb shaking non-stop, doc say if after one week still like that have to refer to specialist.. gosh.. what really happen to me ???!!! dunnoe what should i do.. days in NTT really sux, XL emotions taking over her too.. been crying when we are there.. lots of unexpected things and not sure what our future holds.. we only have the 3 of us to hold on to.. though i keep telling XL to be strong and give herself more time, but me myself is holding on too so that to keep XL and tini motivated as i know we cant give up.. "pek chek" and "sad"...

things started to change when i thought my life in TTNI is gonna turn out great.. the 8 girls in helpdesk are so bonded.. loves to joke and miss the laughter... just as i thought there is not gonna be any changes.. TTNI has signed up with NTT to do support for them... the reason i left my old company was becos it was outsource, transition is terrible.. now.. i have to go through with it... y all IT company likes transition... sob... scare of being alone, scare of changes, scare that i cant cope, scare that i let julia down as i know taking mc for the pass 2 days is no good as we are having training.. question myself y i keep going out when i know my own body needs a rest.. feel stupid.. feel miserable..

Just hoping for the best.. hope that we can be back in TTNI like the old days although i have been there for like 9 months only, there is like my second home with all my sisters... miss u girls badly... "holding on"... *cry*...